Goals

Never ever stop working towards your goals
this is a storry about how i reached so many of my goals, most of it without knowing or realizing it until long time after
My first goal was to get a Medal, i had been compeeting in Judo for 3 years i think without ever getting a a single medal, BUT i never ever gave up
than i was entered in both Sydkuppen and SkåneSerien, but you had to get a medal in SkåneSerien before you where allowed to compete in Sydkuppen, the thing was that Sydkuppen was the week before Skåneserien.
And not only that, I took muy very first medal in Sydkuppen, a SilverMedal to, so now i had an even more crucial goal to reach, GETTING a medal in Skåneserien, and guess what, i sure did!

Second goal i didnt even know was a goal until i started to look back on my life,
my mother told me i when i was younger said i wanted to work at Ericsson, as i was interested in Electronics and futuretech and such when i was younger.
and end of 2004, i got a phone call from Manpower, they had seen my profile and thought it would fit in to one of their clients applications, I went to SonyEricsson to meet christer for an interview and guess what, I GOT THE JOB!

if i look a bit closer, around 2001 I helped out alot during MLM events and felt this is something i like doing, and be part of, And i remember saying this several times and it was a very strong feeling that its fun and ide love to do more.
Well 4 years ago, i was asked at my previous job at SonyEricsson, if ide like to support at MobileWorld Congress that year, and it was my time in the team to do the next travel/trip.
Apparently i did such a good job, that they the year after not just requested someone to support, but they requested and fought for it to be me comming and supporting them on the event.
and one thing led to another event, and some more events, and today i am working as an EventManager within SONY.

so there is 3 GOALS that i reached becouse i wanted to, i expressed that i wanted to, and i did a really GOOD job when doing it, so that it became my reality!

with this said, DONT GIVE UP ON YOUR GOALS they can and will be your reality.

I am that good....

Not often i bang myself on my chest (doesnt sound as good in English as in swedish).

But sometimes you acctually have to realize and be proud of what you have accomplished and that there is things you are really good at.

I think i have found my thing, i LOVE my job, and what i get to do, and when you get a call from you Manager, asking if you can go to New York to support an Setup there cause they feel more secure with me there.

Or that i in the last minute gets asked to go to London, just to make sure we get the setup and everything working correctly, that makes me realize that even though im normaly humble and never take the credit myself, and i will not do today either, BUT, i acctually think and believe that I am this good.

Yes its always a team effort, but still i know my things, and i know that i know it.

and apparently more people do this to.

so this is my little EGO blogg.

Have i reached my best-before date?

Do life need to be so complicated, or is it just us humans that make it more complicated than it is?
i wonder this, can we be to honest, or to truthfull, is it possible to tell a person to much?
and why is it so?
right now there is so much questions in my head, about my future, will i be alone, will i meet someone, maybe i have it better of alone, or how hard can it be to find someone that is like me?

do I live in the right country, or should i move, what would happen if i move?
where should i move.
BUT then i wouldnt want to move, as that would mean that i would have to leave the only BIG love i have in my life, my daughter!

so back to the original question, DO LIFE NEED TO BE SO COMPLICATED?

I wanna hide the truth

I wanna shelter you

but with the beast inside

theres nowhere we can hide

No matter what we breed

We still are made of greed

This is my kingdom come

This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat

Look into my eyes

Its where my deamons hide

Its where my deamons hide

Dont get to close

Its dark inside

Its where my deamons hide

Its where my deamons hide

Wonderful lyrics from Imagine Dragons

that shows some of the feelings i have inside of me right now, some things i can not write down yet.

And its all going back to the top questions, why do we make it so damn complicated.

If you wanna be with me....

Dont come over here if you want me to carry you,

Cant you see i am heavy as I am.

I am one of those who like to be in charge,

I never got to that when i was younger.

I have never had the guts to do what they say,

and yet ive asked them for advice.

Like never feel at home in the city I live in.

This is my life, this is my job!

This is my time and my decisions, as i have choosen them.

You dont need to understand,

but this is the way i do things

and its up to you if you want to be with me.

This part of the lyrics from a swedish song by Melissa Horn, says part of how my life is and how I feel,

When beeing on an airplane and sitting and listening to music, you do some thinking to, sometime its just jibbrish taht comes out, but sometimes my head tend to wander of into subjects that is closer to me and my life.

The last few weeks in berlin, ive met some new wonderful friends, and some that ive got into talking about things like relationships and things like that.

For some reason the question about why I am single, and how come ive almost choosen to be single comes up, and my questions is almost as easy as its hard,

I do not miss beeing in a relationship, My life at this point is pretty amazing, and as i see it right now, and as the lyrics above so clearly state, is that for someone to come into my life, they need to accept my job, my travel, me beeing at the gym 5 times a week, and that my little Michelle always have and always will have the biggest part of my heart.

And right now I havent met anyone that would make me consider changing any of the above.

So i cant ask of anyone else to change just because i am not willing to do this.

This is not rocket sience, its basics, I love the life i am living, and that is the life i have choosen right now.

Swapping Languages

So will as ive had visitors from more countries than sweden, swap from writing in swedish to writing in English.

the content will still stay the same, it will still be me writing when i need to clear my head, when there is thoughts that need to get out, this is my valve, to release whats going on inside myhead.